Love Room: Occupied

I just started reading this book on my Kindle for wives. It's called Capture His Heart: Becoming the Godly Wife Your Husband Desires by Lysa TerKeurst. So far I've read two chapters and already I have been given such great insights that I wanted to share some.

So maybe some of you reading this have already figured out what I'm about to share with you, but I have only been married for almost two years coming up this August.That is hardly a lifetime like some of you seasoned wifeys out there.

Now, I just want to say my husband is so amazing and sweet. My marriage has been so blessed and I don't want to give the impression by the title of this book that I'm trying to make my husband love me more or fall in love with me. He already loves me sooo much, and he tells me and shows me all the time how in love with me he is. He's such a blessing to me!

I picked up this book due to a deep stirring that has been going on in my heart. I can't fully explain what I mean by that even to myself. But I feel my heart changing and my desires and emotions changing. I feel...provoked. A good kind of a provoked. I'm not satisfied (in a good way). I feel like my heart is cut open and raw and crying out for me to do something different. I am not enough. I need more of God. I need to disappear till Christ's hand is all you see.

So lately I have begun this journey. And to be honest so far it hasn't been easy. From the start it has been a constant tug-of-war. I want to let go of the rope, but my hands feel glued. Its a battle between my will and total surrender.

It is because of this stirring that I have been working on becoming a more godly woman. And because of my son and husband and my love for them.

So, I'm reading this book. And...I've read marriage books before. I was expecting it to be helpful and remind me how to treat Nestor. What I wasn't expecting was for God to hit the nail on the head with this book! Honestly, haven't I learned by now? God always has a plan up his sleeve. He is so awesome!

Alright so I've kept you all waiting long enough. Lysa TerKeurst explained in her chapter entitled, "Every Husband Makes a Poor God", very simply that we all, women especially, have a special placed in ourselves that has a strong desire to feel loved. The mistake many women make is to try and fill their need for love completely with their husband. The problem is that, that place in our hearts that longs to feel loved was meant for God to fill. So our husbands cannot fully satisfy that need because they were never meant to, and they don't have the capacity to love as God does. If we try to fill our love room with our husbands it will only be draining on them and we will never be really satisfied.

This was such an obvious, yet mind blowing statement for me. If I looked for God to fulfill my needs for love before I look to my husband I know it was change my whole perceptive on my marriage. To fully love my husband I must love God first.

Wow, what a great lesson learned. God really has great plans for me. I just have to say, 'yes'. That's all for now. Thanks for reading. Hope it encourages someone.

Blessings friends.